The other night I was feeling uneasy about how I'm living my life.
I've been here for 36 years now and although I have a good family life and a right relationship with God (which are the two most important things to me), I haven't really accomplished much else.
I haven't distinguished myself.
I'm just me.
Now this is not some feeble attempt on my part to get the comment section full of nice encouraging sentiments from you, my friends. I'm just being honest that I sometimes wonder if I'm doing everything that I should be doing. Am I being a good steward of all that God has granted me?
For example, am I, as a mom, investing in my kids as I should? Am I helping them develop their God given talents to honor Him? Am I teaching them the value of hard work? (I think I'm doing pretty poorly on that one.) Am I giving them the tools they need to lead a successful life? What risks should I let them take and what things should I protect them from?
Tobias will legally be an adult in less than three years and Delaney isn't far behind. I have so little time left being their full-time mom. Soon they will be responsible for themselves. Have I done what I should to prepare them for that?
Anyway, Jeff and I prayed about this a few nights ago, asking God for wisdom and guidance. In the morning, I sat down for my morning time of prayer and study and was greatly encouraged by the following verses:
"I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I am not one of those who treats the grace of God as meaningless." Galatians 2:20b-21a
This reassured me because I know that while I live this earthly life I can and should trust in Christ because He loves me so perfectly and powerfully. Also, I know that I do greatly value His grace.
While I'm trusting in Him and valuing His grace then I can't help but live the way I ought to. No, my life won't be perfect and yes, I will sin and botch situations, but if I am trusting in Him and valuing His grace then that's pretty much all that He wants from me.
He'll bring things together in His time and through His ways.
Thank God I don't have to be my own god. :)
4 comments:
Such an awesome God we serve who knows us and guides our path and our kiddos in this crazy world...gotta leave that worrying at the cross alot more as our kids grow older.
I hear you girl and I DON'T think you are fishing for "how great you are" compliments; although you do rock! ;) OK with that said I feel that way often and just today my girlfriend and I were at lunch talking about how we have to reign in our fear and trying to control things on a regualr basis. Worrying that we didn't do this or that or missed the mark here or there...........so hard. We know in our heads God is good and faithful and leads us but it's still a crazy life we live here in our temporary home.
Wonderful post.... such a good reminder. It is truly a wonderful thing that we don't have to be our own god. It's hard for me to remember that sometimes - I tend to think that I know what's best... You'd think that I would have learned that lesson by now! I'm so glad we serve a God of grace, patience, forgiveness and love (among many other things)... Thanks again for the post - it gave me a lot to think about!
Thanks, ladies. It's so nice to feel understood and related to. :)
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